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The Place of Nevertheless – Part One

On November 10, 2009, my dad called from New York to ask if I could come and help him. He was about to undergo several eye surgeries and needed me to help by driving him and accompanying him to his various appointments.

On December 9, 2009, my oldest daughter and I departed Denver. She was accompanying me to check on her Granddad. When we got situated on the plane, she asked, “Did you know Mae’s (my biological mother) cancer has returned?” God had set me up.

At that point, I looked out the window toward the sky and acknowledged, “You’ve set me up, haven’t You?” He didn’t have to answer. I already knew.

I thought I would only be in New York for three, maybe six months. God allowed me to be away from home for a period of 13.5 months. One year, one and a half months. 405 days.

I was away from my husband, our children, our home, my church family. Everything. Plus, I was in an apartment with a man, my biological father, with whom I had never spent a great deal of time. I didn’t grow up with him. I grew up with his family, my grandmother and grandfather. I didn’t really get to know him. As a matter of fact, I only discovered he was my biological father when I was about 15 or 16. Therefore, there was no emotional attachment. I was only going to do the dutiful daughter thing.

Now, mind you, I had come to know him. He was married to a wonderful woman, my stepmother, Margaret, for about 40 years. She passed away in 2005 from Alzheimer-related illnesses. She was my girl! I loved that chick! Him? Well, you understand.

Anyway, about 6 or 7 months into this sojourn, I began crying one morning as I prayed. I very badly wanted to return to Denver!

I missed my family!

I missed my friends!

I missed my life!

I was in a place where I was not wanted. My dad had already told me he liked doing things by himself. I was willing to let him do those things…by himself.

But God…

As I cried that morning, telling God I couldn’t take it anymore, frustrated in ways I’d never experienced, I heard the voice of the Lord say, “Do you have one more nevertheless?

Do you like television shows that end the season with a cliffhanger? Well, this is my cliffhanger.

Before I let you go, though, I want you to think about this: has God asked you for just one more nevertheless? And if He has, what was your response? Has God taken you on a journey in which He is requiring more from you?

In two weeks, I will share my response.

God has taken The Drill Sergeant of Life on a journey I never expected. This journey will cause me to be/become what He has called and created me to be.

I hope you enjoy and will share my blogs. They come straight from my heart, washed by the anointing of the Almighty God Whom I gladly serve.

God is faithful to perform!

May God abundantly bless you.

 

Beatrice Bruno, The Drill Sergeant of Life

 

 

Bitter or Better? In 2014, the Choice is Yours! Part One

Has life taught you some things that others need to know about or learn from? Are you a completely different person from who you were 5, 10, 20 years ago? Believe it or not, the things you have experienced in life are currently being experienced by someone else. You were allowed to experience it first so you can go back and lend a hand to someone else. That’s what being The Drill Sergeant of Life means to me. I have been on the Battlefield of Life; still am on The Battlefield of Life. And now, I am here to help others make it through to the objective: freedom to be who you were called and created to be. So, Get Over Yourself, Get Out of Your Own Way and Get What YOU Want Out of Life!

About a year ago, I had to make a choice. I won’t give you the particulars but something happened that allowed me to see behind the veneer of someone I thought was a friend.

The situation devastated me: my heart hurt so badly, I really didn’t know if I was going to make it. The relationship ended, of course. But, the backlash from the entire situation gave me pause to think. At the time, I wanted to just give up on people. After all, people had given me many reasons to give up and turn inward. I had been hurt so much by others; I was ready to give up.

Then, the Lord brought me to a person in the Bible who had also been hurt. This lady had been hurt by life: first, her husband died. Then, her sons died. She was left alone with two daughters-in-law and no visible means of support. She turned inward.

When asked, she even told people to not call her by her given name ‘Naomi’ anymore. She wanted to be called Mara, bitter.

Ruth 1:20 – 21 Call me not Naomi, call me Mara: for the Almighty hath dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, and the Lord hath brought me home again empty; why then call ye me Naomi, seeing the Lord hath testified against me, and the Almighty hath afflicted me?

She finally persuaded one of her daughters-in-law to return to her family. After all, she told the young woman, even if she, Naomi, were to remarry and have another son, would Orpah stick around to perhaps marry the son that would come so long after she was already grown?

So, that particular daughter-in-law left Naomi and her sister-in-law, Ruth, and returned to her family. Ruth decided she would stick with her mother-in-law.

Where you go, I will go! Where you die, I will die! Your people will be my people! Your God will be my God!

Naomi had a reason to praise the Lord! This young woman owed her nothing! But, she loved her enough to stick with her. Whatever befell Naomi, Ruth was willing to allow the same to befall her.

Naomi remained bitter. She didn’t expect any good thing to happen in her life. God had taken her reason for living. Or so she thought!

That day concerning my friend was a turning point. I had the opportunity to either be bitter or Better.

If I chose bitter, it meant I had to walk around with a very unappealing look on my face, all the time. It meant I didn’t trust God to turn my situation around. In other words, I had no hope!

But, I knew better than that! I know that God is a righteous God! He is my glory and the lifter up of my head. He is a very present help in trouble. Regardless of what a person had done to me, I had to dig deep and remember those things God had done for me! I had to look back through my life to the blessings God had already performed in my life. I had to decide to be Better instead of Bitter!

What about you? Have you had instances in your life in which you had to make a choice between bitter and better? What did those experiences do to you? Were you able to jump from one to the other and look back and see the good that had happened? Or, are you still struggling?

Everything you have gone through in life was created to make you better, not bitter. Use those experiences to help others see past their circumstances and rise up to be who they were created to be. Use your pain and tragedies to push yourself and others forward. We need you. We believe in you. Now, you believe in you!

Be abundantly thankful and blessed! God is faithful!

The Drill Sergeant